introspection

 to me it means getting to know my true self. I painted my toenails teal blue and I realized that I like that color. Cool tone looks good on me. Silver jewelry looks better than gold. Or I could do both. Who cares. All rules to guide. I will try berry lipsticks next. Get NARS red lizard. Thinking about being a red head. 

I like monochrome clothes. Dark v neck or low neck cut, light bottoms. Cultivate a wardrobe I like looking at everyday. 

Trying my hardest to be mentally strong. Today, is a struggle day. I did not get enough sleep. I slept in the couch for the second night in a row. I thought I was doing good since I was able to sleep in bed. But there's a part of me who is trying her hardest to roar the fuck back. The part of me who is trying to sabotage my progress. Which according to what I'm learning these past few days is that I need to give more compassion and understanding and love to that version of me. I hear you. I see you. I observe it now. I can see it clearly. You are afraid. I see you. I see the fear in your actions.